school is comming soon and i can feel the pressure... this year i will try to brake cliques without breaking friendships. the people that hate others that arent like them can just go away... my school among others are filled with ego-filled maniacs that dont realize that there are other people there accept for them. and some of those ego-filled maniacs are my so called "friends". the people that i now converse with are more caring about other peoples feelings and beliefs. and certain people that i used to talk to are now the ones that are the ego-filled maniacs that i used to think liked kids that were friends with every one... i was wrong. a certain person that was friends with every one is now dead. not kidding. but when i asked those certain kids if they were sad about it, gess what they said... no. because they are so sucked in by there own feelings that they dont care about even some of there closest friends. i hope that the certain person that left for the summer comes back unchanged... he was the only one of those friends that didnt care that i hung out with more people then just the ones that i "dressed" like and "talked" like. and now that i dont care what people think those people act as if there better then my other friends. im tired of making people being afraid of what ill do next and being so secretive about every little thing. those certain people thought that just because there problems wernt like other people that some how they were better... they were wrong. every one deals with problems in different ways. but they cant understand that certain people dont have to sit around and cry all the time about it. you can imbrace the changes and learn that eventually your going to have to find out that no one will help you and give you simpathy if you made them afraid that you might hurt them both emotionally and fisically. secrets are eventually told... just remeber that for future references who ever is reading this. and i wont put any names because those people dont deserve to be unmasked. because underneith you might find that they have more faces then one. and that twisted mess might just pull you under. have a fun time at school next year!!! joe